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My Name is Laverinx Esxriyah. i am a 20 year old, and my days are spent huddled in my room listening to music, coding, studying, reading fic, or playing video games.

this space holds everything about me, if u want to know something i write to feel, to remember, and sometimes… to heal. i try to meet each day with quiet resilience — it's not always easy, but i’ve learned to grow through the mess and find strength in the stillness of my own path.

i used to really dislike the color green, but lately, i find comfort in it — it’s slowly found its way into my designs, like a color i’ve learned to forgive. talking to people used to come naturally. before the world shifted, i was the kind of person who could talk to a stranger like we were old friends. but now, i overthink — worried i’m too much, too loud, too something. so, i retreat. i stay quiet. i build this little digital corner instead. most days, you'll find me here — coding my site, writing little blog posts, and doing splits(jk)

Profile

Nickname(s): ZixuS, Xu, Zuan
Birthday: September 25, 2004
Zodiac Sign: Libra
MBTI: ENFJ-T
Pronouns: He/Him, She/Her
Blood Type: O+
Height: 5'7.3" | 171 cm

films

Horror: Call Me Chihiro, Monster, My beautiful Man, The Substance, Mindcage, Ten Little Mistresses, Luck, Egoist, The Medium, Incantation, herry Magic: The Movie, Eerie, Poon, Does the flower Bloom, Ready Or Not, #JOWABLE, Hereditary, Veronica, Ossan's Love, Grave Encounters, The Lorax, For Colored Girls, Sick Nurses, Muoi, Alone, Shutter, Coming Soon, Letterboxd

Interest

Reading, journaling, Coding, Gaming, Blogging, Photography, Stickers, feeding stray cats, horror media

manga

Berserk, The Girl from the Other Side

anime

The Ancient Magus' Bride, Neon Genesis Evangelion

music

Snsd, Ethel Cain, NMIXX, PinkPantheress, Imogen Heap, Kyary Pamyu Pamyu, Sumin, StayC, 2ne1, Ayesha Erotica, Number_i, BABYMETAL, Perfume, IVE, Chungha, Pussycat Dolls, Aespa, XG, CLC, Crystal Castle, Dreamcatcher, EXID, Twice, Itzy, Kiof, Lady Gaga, Le Sserafim, Loona, Melanie Martinez, TripleS, WJSN, Iz*One, Sunmi, Red Velvet, NewJeans/Njz, Artms, Yves, Grimes, AOA, F5ve

games

Space Channel, God of War 1 & 2, Left 4 Dead 1 & 2, Mortal Kombat, Bloodrayne 1 & 2, Bloody Roar 4, Tekken 5, Guitar Hero, Bully, Crash Bandicoot, The Incredibles, SSX tricky, PaRappa the Rapper 1 & 2, Harvest Moon, Spy Vs. Spy, Alice: Madness Returns, Haunting Ground, Clock Tower 1-3, Chicken Little, Sengoku Basara, The Impossible Quiz 1-3, Rule of Rose, Aeon Flux

food

Spaghetti, Adobo, Sinigang, GINILING!!! (fave), Fried chicken, Kaldereta, Mechado, Afritada, Bicol express, Carbonara

drink

EVERYTHING CHOCOLATE OR COOKIES AND CREEEEEEEEEAAAAAMMMM!!!!!

Languages

Fluent: Filipino, English
Intermediate: Korean (50%)
Currently Learning: Japanese

Appearance & Style

Fashion Style: Minimal aesthetics with a touch of androgyny
Piercings/Tattoos: None, might get one if my parents allow me.

Favorites

Colors: Deep Blue, Lavender, Charcoal Grey, Cyan, Indigo, Neon Pink
Scents: Moonlight, Vanilla Musk, Carried Away, Beautiful Day, Gingham, Into the Night, Japanese Cherry Blossom
Drink: Anything chocolate-flavored, Cookies & Cream
Food: Giniling, Carbonara, Spaghetti, Adobo—kind of picky when it comes to veggies
Time of Day: Dawn—when the sun fades into dreams

Aspirations & Inspirations

Childhood Dream Job: Scientist
Adult Dream Job: Game Developer
Currently Inspired By: Art, music, fleeting conversations

Fun Facts

Lucky Numbers: 4, 9, 25
Pets: 1 Dog [Bonnie], 1 Cat [Tabitha]
Phobias: Heights? Not sure. I feel like I'm not really scared of heights—I’m just scared that I might fall from them. Besides that, I haven't figured it out yet.
Most Used Emoji: ✨ or 🖤

Current Obsession

Building a small indie game project—pixels, synth music, and endless debugging. And You! 😉

Hobbies & Interests

Hobbies: Reading, Music, Dance, Gaming, Coding

Favorite Genres

Music: K-pop, J-pop, D&B, Liquid D&B, Bossa Nova, EDM, Bedroom Pop, Lo-fi, Pop, Hyper Pop, Electronic, UK Garage, Jungle, Shoegaze
Movies: MORE INTO HORROR! Sci-fi, crime film, documentary, noir, romcom, drama
Books: Fiction, History, Mystery, Paranormal Romance, Poetry, Fantasy

Other Favorites

Comfort Characters: Senoo Makio, Adachi Kiyoshi, Kurosawa Yuichi, Haruta Soichi [Definitely Me]
Favorite Quote: Some souls recognize each other by touch alone.
Motto: If you can't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen up in here? Now let the music play!